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[24 Jan 2005|10:09pm]
[ mood | cold ]

livejournal= over



go to my xanga

still so crayola brown

[20 Jan 2005|09:13pm]
[ mood | drained ]

[[never underestimate the pain of a person,

cuz the truth is…everyone is struggling.

it`s just some people hide it better than others]]

still so crayola brown

[18 Jan 2005|07:41pm]
[ mood | weird ]

A girl and guy are speeding over 100 mph on the road on a motorcycle...
Girl: Slow down. Im scared.
Guy: No this is fun.
Girl: No its not. Please, it's too scary!
Guy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: Fine, I love you, but slow down!
Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.
*Girl hugs him*
Guy: Can you take my helmet off & put it on yourself? Its bugging me.
(In the paper the next day):
...A motorcycle crashed into a building last night because of break failure. Two people were involved, a male and a female, but only 1 survived. The truth was that halfway down the road, the 18 year old boy realized that his breaks had broke, but he didn't want to let his partner know. Instead, he made her say she loved him and felt her hug one last time, and let her wear his helmet so that she would live, realizing he would be the one that would die.

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[15 Jan 2005|11:17pm]
[ mood | sick ]

1. nose hurts like hell still

2. went to look at my new neighborhood and i hate it

3. saw south forsyth=confusing=i'm gonna get lost

4. house went on the market today


but on the fLiP sIdE. . .

 i get the whole third story to myself! ha, hellll yeaaaa!

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[13 Jan 2005|11:00am]
[ mood | groggy ]

surgery was yesterday! aHh!. . .



it's def. VERY painful!



the doc said that the third day was always the hardest. . . Oh JoY!</3

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[11 Jan 2005|09:36pm]
[ mood | nervous ]

surgery tomorrow! yIkEs!

so i think i've def. decided on moving to south forsyth, bc it's not like many people would actually care anyways. . .

sooo if anyone knows someone that goes there, i would greatly appreciate you introducing me so i'm not a loser and don't know anyone! lol

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[10 Jan 2005|09:54pm]
[ mood | cold ]

i just want somebody to actually care

still so crayola brown

[09 Jan 2005|08:45pm]
[ mood | indifferent ]

alright, i need some responses back. . .


here's the plan that my mom pitched to me

-i get my learners after my surgery (yesss i'm a loser and don't have it yet)

-the pay for half my insurance on my car

-and for driver's ed

. . .all in return so they can move to the vickery and i would be going to south forsyth. . .


here's the plan that i though of"

-full insurance

-take me back over here anytime i want to

-and she has to take me shopping



ha so if you think about any other things i can negotiate for, i'm all for it! haha


i was thinking, and it wouldn't be that bad moving to a new school bc north is officially GAY! and to have a new start, but i don't want to be the "new girl" bc that's def. NO fun.




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nadddaaa [08 Jan 2005|09:08pm]
[ mood | bored ]

i had my pre-op appt. yesterday

-have to be at the hospital at 9:45
-surgery @ 11:15
-takes 2 hours
-2-3 hours before i wake up
-won't get home till 6
-4 different meds
1. antibiotic
2. antibiotic
3. painkiller
4. something to not make me sick
-i'll get really sick
-no running for like a month! YiKeS! not goood..
-i'll have stints
-i'll throw up blood!
-get to miss school for a week! YAY
-this could possibly not get rid of my headaches


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[07 Jan 2005|06:12pm]
[ mood | sad ]

so my mom and fucking fat ass stepdad are officially psycho. . .

and my step dad thinks that he has to be the "father" role in my life, and um yea i'm pretty sure that i have a dad, even though he lives 4 states away, i don't need his fat ass bitching self telling me what to do. . .

so here's the story i was getting pretty frustrated with chemistry bc it's hard as hell, and then i was like ughh i never learned any of this stuff last semester! and my step dad told me that it wasn't the teacher's fault that i didn't know it, it's my fault bc i'm not smart, so yea you know that's always wonderful you know way to boost my self esteem asshole!

and then i have to have surgery and my step dad told me that i didn't need it and that i was making it up, yea, you know my i love "faking" my headaches and being sick all the time and i'm pretty sure that it's NOT my fault! and also when the doctor told me that i needed it so that's pretty much a big indication that i need surgery if the doctor tells me that i do, not just me saying

and then he was yelling at parker for something that was between her and my mom and i just wish he would shut his fucking big ass mouth, for all i care, he can never speak to me again, because we DON'T get along and i get in trouble for not being "loving" to him and i mean how can you be loving to someone who gives you shit alll the time, pretty much puts you down, tells you everything that's going wrong is your fault, and just in general is a HUGE asshole!

yea, fuck this family stuff, i want to leave to get away from my step dad whom i hate VERY much and never will like him! even though my cool psycho mom gets people to talk to me saying that i should get along with him, and that everyone doesn't get along with their step dad at first but then as they get older and mature more they realize everything that he does for me, so alright, lets see what he does for me, he gives me a house to live in, but it's not safe bc i'm pretty much terrified of him so yea that's about it in all he does for me! and i'm pretty sure that i'm mature bc you know i have to listen to them tell me how my dad is a dead beat dad, but i'm pretty sure that dead beat das is one who doesn't care about his children! and he cares about us, i mean he may not be able to do EVERYTHING for us, but neither can they, they're like well why don't you get him to take you shopping, and then i always come back well the day you take me shopping is the day i get him to! and i realize that pretty much everything i want is REALLY expensive that's why i don't ask them or him! and i know my dad does what he can for us! and i really admire that, and then all i get to hear is how shitty of a dad they think he is, but if they only knew. . .

and i mean what about gary that's pretty sad if your own kids are afraid of you! don't you think? i do

and ughhh this whole family shit is completely bullshit and there's no point to it if everyone fights, i mean we can't even sit down for 20 minutes for dinner without someone getting in a fight with him. . .

so i say, fuck this

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dedication [04 Jan 2005|02:26pm]
[ mood | happy ]

so my journal is pretty much dedicated to this saying. . .


and jadi and kyle too! bc that was pretty much what we laughed at the whole week...
- hi, i'm a senior at oakridge
- firefighters find them hot and leave them wet
- DILBERT! hahaha

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christmas break 04' [03 Jan 2005|09:55pm]
[ mood | sad ]

so this past week has been pretty much AMAZING! and it couldn't have happened without jadi and kyle!!

i'll never forget it! and we def. hung out EVERY night!

. . . our own way of put putting bc we're HORRIBLE!, BOYSSS!, dilbert, hi--i'm a senior at oak ridge, PIG!, making fun of jadi!, movie night!, swinging, wet slides, driving around, firestation!, making fun of the way livvy runs! pictures! uhm talking about certain people, SEAN!, starbucks and the weird kid that was like staring at us bc he knew our names! and the drunk/high guys trying to get us to give them a ride, wanna race?!




jadi and kyle- ya'll are pretty much like the best people that i know and one of my best friends! but it just sucks that kyle you live 3 states away and jadi that you live like 4 states away! but oh well bc it pretty much seems like we can pick up right when we left off! which is pretty cool! and this week just wouldn't have been the same without ya'll and i can't wait till spring break! it's gonna be so much fun  and hopefully jadi we have the same SB!! and hopefully i'll get to see youn kyle! i love ya'll and miss ya'll!

still so crayola brown

done [27 Dec 2004|10:23pm]
[ mood | content ]

def. done updating till i get home on the 3rd! tear! i def. DON'T want to leave! ohhhh wellll though

hope everyone had a good christmas!


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[24 Dec 2004|11:01pm]
[ mood | jubilant ]

merry christmas guysss!

hope ya'll have a good day tomorrow!

and ahhhh! i leave for texas! i'm so excited, I CAN'T WAIT! whooo!

i get to seee my jades...

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sweet! [23 Dec 2004|05:07pm]
[ mood | giddy ]


surgery for caroline!

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[22 Dec 2004|01:19am]
[ mood | chipper ]

bold all that apply

01. I can not draw.
02. I have strange eating habits.
03. I am currently obsessed with someone/something.
04. I love xanga.
05. I just ate a sandwich.
06. I am from a house. ??? i live in one.. lol
07. I was born in October.
08. I enjoy reading.
09. I am not on anti-depressents.
10. I bite my nails.
11. I am in love with Johnny Knoxville.
12. I like English class.
13. I've lost/messed up my cell phone twice.
14. I hope someday I'll find happiness... sometimes..
15. I'm about 5'6"
16. I like some sports.
17. I am quick witted.
18. I often stare into nothing.
19. I like board games.
20. I appreciate gratitude.
21. I can usually sleep even when I'm not tired.
22. I am too lazy.
23. I hate the smell of movie popcorn.
24. I constantly procrastinate.
25. I have never done hardcore drugs before.
26. I drink alcohol. ..not always..
27. I wish I had better grades.
28. I love chocolate.
29. Stupid people amuse me.
30. I hate when people judge others without knowing them.
31. I love hot chocolate.
32. I like *some* kids.
33. I hate cabbage.
34. I dress casually.
35. I am judgmental.
36. I don't have a favorite television show.
37. I'm not a senior in high school.
38. I am single.
39. I go to ECR.
40. I like Garlic Bread.
41. I am an optimist.
42. I love summer.
43. I haven't seen Marilyn Manson in concert.
44. I can be harsh.
45. It annoys me when people disrespect nature.
46. I am a hypocrite.
47. I wish i could have voted in the 2004 presidential election.
48. I am trustworthy.
49. I wish I could play guitar or sing.
50. I want to get my hair cut.
51. The silence after a long discussion when you're trying to think of what to say next is terrible.
52. I burn my own cds.
53. I am not passive.
54. The best thing about a guy is his personality.
55. I often put others before myself.
56. I hate it when I don't understand what the lyrics of a song mean.
58. I am currently smoke-free.
59. I'm half korean and half white.
60. Stupid people really confuse me.
61. I like showers.
62. I love surprises.
63. I'm not fond of confrontation.
64. Sometimes I laugh about absolutely nothing.
65. The known makes me uneasy.
66. I am perfectly comfortable with knowing that I will eventually die.
67. I hate cold showers.
68. I sometimes speak just to fill silence.
69. I am afraid of not having control over my future.
70. I wish I could visit New York. even though i've already been there i want to go back!
71. I like to keep life exciting.
72. I have ran into a tree.
73. I have walked into windows.
74. I like looking at and taking pictures.
75. I don't know how to play pool.
76. My favorite sport to watch is basketball.
77. I learn song lyrics quickly.
78. I like candles.
79. I like school sometimes.
80. I am annoyed by phony people.
81. I have studied one language besides English in my life.
82. I don't have a favorite color.
83. I am avoiding homework, thats why I am doing this.
84. I usually hold doors.
85. I have 1 sister.
86. I don't like when people brag.
87. I had a bad camping experience.
88. I really want to find love.
89. I like people with a really good sense of humor.
90. I like taking my time, yet I'm impatient with others.
91. I was just on the phone.
92. I like color coordinating my clothes. HAH imma nerd
93. My hair is brown. yuck!
94. I have never dyed my hair. ha please i don't even know how many times i've done that
95. I reminisce to myself a lot.
96. I am fond of Dave Matthews Band. eww gross
97. I don't know who Saul Williams is.
98. I am not a needy person.
99. My bedroom is always messy.
100. I don't like fancy jewelry.

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gone [21 Dec 2004|11:36pm]
[ mood | drained ]

you washed away the best of me.

still so crayola brown

it's all about you. .. [20 Dec 2004|11:07pm]
[ mood | amused ]

fake it like you matter.

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you know how i do [19 Dec 2004|10:24pm]
[ mood | sick ]

willing and ready to prove the worst of everything you said

still so crayola brown

SUPER BORED! [18 Dec 2004|05:59pm]
[ mood | discontent ]

I guess you get used to somebody
Kind of like havin' them around
I guess you get used to the way they make you happy
Bring you up when you're feelin' down
I never dreamed when I was letting you go
That I would wake up and miss you this much
I guess you get used to somebody
I guess you get used to bein' loved

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